corrected

the calm waters
that waved between her
and freedom

grew hard
in undercurrents
of turbulence

the rainbow
that shined across the
border to peace

darkened 
into a storm
of darkness

and no matter
what she said
and no matter
what she did

and no matter
what she was
and no matter
how she hid

nothing could stop
the authority of the land
from correcting
her spirit

as it pulled
her soul 
back home

(gone)

darkness

his eyes

started to filter out

the brilliance 

from above

narrowing 

his vision

to an almost

dark existence 

he started to notice

that if he saw

too much

he felt too much

and when 

he felt too much

he was 

too much

so he would 

hide from the sun

and it's life-giving

properties

and hide in

his own 

mockery

further and

further away from

her humanity

and what was

once his bliss

(dark)

gone

that tree
used to have
leaves

that laughed
as the fell
to the ground

and that sky
used to have a
sun

that brightened
every smile
that it saw

and that ground
used to be
smooth

with explosions
of flowers all
over its hills

this world
used to be
beautiful

with you

no more

(gone)

repel

it aches
to look forward

it's hell
to look back

to walk
in a circle

means certain attack

standing alone
in the distance
brings constant
fear

what can i hope for
when you are here?

your presence
will calm me

but my fears will
whisper

your hugs
will warm me

but my tears will
linger

you think you're
the one who can
fix what i am

but no one can
but myself

even when i accept

i repel

(tell)

leads your heart

the impatient grass
tapped down by so many feet
leads your heart back home

dog days

in those
dog days of summer

i met a
spaniel on the way
to the ice cream truck

waiting at the corner

she ran with two feet
and smiled with
all her heart

i can still see her
sprinting

all away 'cross my heart

we hardly spoke
through popsicles
made of melting ice

and all was nice for
a-while

one last smile
and she was gone

(wag)

allowed

you and i

and the moon's 

half smile

meeting again

after a long

while

hiding in 

shadows

created by clouds

daring to 

whisper

dreams out loud

hoping for a 

time

when we are allowed

totally at 

bliss

in the midst of a crowd

(proud)

ghost

can you feel us
separating?

can you see me
moving away?

can you understand
the steps i'm taking

is there something
i should say?

ghosting's hard
on what's left of
my psyche

there's no
right way
to leave politely

if you were me
you'd do the same

furiously trying to 
erase my name

backwards in time
i travel slow

you'll never know
how much it hurts
to let go

or will you?

(vanish)

moment

the ride with her
was always hidden

so much was forbidden
in their world

but when she smiled
so easily

at the simple pleasures
he gave freely

it lessened the tensions
that surrounded
him daily

as he bravely walked
in darkness

harking back to
knightly ways

hidden swords
cut just as true

(anew)

gardening

when farming moonbeams
please lay caution to the fog
never know what's hid

daddy

dear daddy,

thank you for giving me
a love of the movies
a thirst for learning

a hope for better things

thank you for showing me
the eye of a hurricane
the shade of a pine tree

the error of my ways

than you for being
the man i'd hope to find
the good right by my side

the one who was always right

even though i wasn't
the woman you thought
i could be

thank you for never
giving up on me

no matter how far
i strayed

my eyes were looking home

(love)

padre

we were never poor
from your providing

we were never rich
from a lack of guiding

you were always trying
to keep us safe

and even though we
never mentioned
the strength of
your ways

we knew we
could leaned on
the comfort of
your always

thank you
for helping
thank you
for warming

thank you for healing
thank you for calling

thank you for trying
to understand
what we are

you are more constant
than the north star

forever guiding
forever ours

(love)

blind

mama
was never the same
after the sinking
of the titanic

her smiles
were always implied
and her burden
was never easy

the only time
she was close
to being herself

was when we brought her
to the sea

only then
would she perk up
and awaken

waving madly
across the water
at the hope she could
no longer see

but feel forever 
in her heart

(start)

poetry

if i didn't have poetry

in my life

i would know who i was

for to write down

what i feel

is to define 

who i am

as i find out

who'll i'll become

in the scribbles

of the day

there comes meaning 

to the madness

and with row upon row

the weight lessens

until i can see again

taking pen

to patient paper

may seem like fool's folly

but it gets me through the darkness

of a life

until the light

favours me again

(write)

web

entangled
outside

freed
inside

rain

into the banter
of back and forth

a little rain
must fall

it starts with
clouds of concern
over misspoken words

mists up
into misunderstandings
and half spoken
explanations

interrupted over and
over again

then a flood of
furious insecurity
ends all talk
prematurely

leaving us to
pretend the storm
never happened

what's the forecast
for the rest of
our lives?

will we always
look forward
to sun and omissions

or are grey conditions
the only thing
we'll see

weathering you
weathering me

(storms)

hope

if you look to lights
danger seems so far away
hope remains so clear

shade

i never know
if you're shading
me

or hiding yourself
from me

i never know
when i take
your arm

just how long
i can lean on it

i never know
you
because i spend my time
filling in the blanks of
me
me
me

over and over again

with so many many many words

while all you do
is nod

say you understand

and
with perfect memory
tell me about me

and nothing of
yourself

protect me
no more

wake up and talk!

(be)

convincing advice

if we walk
a few more steps

laced in loneliness

before we try to
pretend-waltz
again

it will remind us
what we miss
from before

until we are
in sync
once more

so i'm told

(sure)

the end

i was given
a short chance
when i met you

it was 
a long shot
to love

and as
my sight dims
to the earth
below

i bring 
your spirit
up above

whatever
the Old Man
decides of me

whatever truth
he can pull
from my deeds

won't compare
to the memory
of your embrace

or burn out
the goodness
of you

from me

it won't
burn out
the goodness
of you

(fire)

wait

let's wait
a-while

before we see
each other again

let's give
the bad memories
a time to breathe

dissipate

and float away

let the nights
of crying

the days
of pining

the hours
of sighing

continue 
for a-while

perhaps the
separation
will cure all the
agitation

that came
when we said
goodbye

(go)

tell

who am i
to-day?

could you tell me
which identity

will be the one
to please you?

i'll change
all of me

just to be
the fantasy in
your lies

i despise
everything
about me

except the smile
in your eyes

(tell)