uncovered

escape from the doom
try not to fall on the ground
hope's within your reach

or

there was a short time
that i thought i could fly high
gravity said no

or

i once had a life
found the sun a faithful friend
now it all just burns

shadows

whatever the turmoil
outside
it never measures with the horror
inside

when you cross the street
down empty roads
you never know
what's behind the door

you can never see
what the shadows bring
you can never hear
what screams can sing

you just assume
that everything's normal

like you

you never can tell
what's behind the blue

(who?)

choices

cloudy skies
bring
a comfort rain

i don't complain

cloudless skies
bring
a starry sky

from way up high

each bring trouble
to
the critical eye

i don't ask why

i hope for sun
but splash in
the rain

each are the same
in my eye

(try)

surprise

giggles from the mask
planning for the sneak attack
warmth comes from within

or

did you realize
it was me behind this hell?
oh well, carry on

or

now i realize
the mask outside never fit
with the girl inside

why

tap it down
don't let it breathe

let it be over
roll down your sleeves

sit in the darkness
let the tears dry

don't even whisper
just sit and sigh

and wonder why
it matters

(why)

like you

i like you before
i like you after

i like you during

i like you for
no reason
i like you in
all seasons

i like you in between

i like you when
you're dark
i like you when
it's light

i like when we're alike

and different

i like to be the likable one
to you

and even if
the days go through
and i never see
the better part of you

i'll still like you

really like you

(true)

lost powers

there was a time
when i was wise

my thoughts could rule
the world

there was a time
when all inside

would make the flags
unfurl

i honed my skills
in secret places

along the raging
river

i kept my craft
within my laces

away from all the shivers

i never was as
powerful

as the princess i was

i often stayed so
doubtful

even during the applause

if only i could travel
back

to the assuring waters

then the world could
attack

but i would never falter

no more dead
outside the slaughter

(be)

just one day

at the ending
of the day

when all
the colours
came out to play

she jumped
and gave
her soul away

just for 
the giving

her spirit traveled
across the land

for all
the people
to understand

why she
decided
to give it away

to give
up living

for just one day

but no one could 

(gone)

release

you let me go
to set me
free

as if being alone
was the best
for me

you refuse
to believe
that i'm tortured
inside

you scoff
when i say
there's nowhere to
hide

so i broke loose
and set them
free

as if letting go
was easy for
me

maybe my heart
will soar better
in flight

maybe the spirits
will fall faster
at night

maybe you'll
begin to understand
my fright

but i doubt it

(go)

caged

his spirit took wing
when he let the captive go
floating towards freedom


or

what's within my grasp
cages more than what i see
my heart holds me back


or


she gave me the key
then flew free from what i was
leaving me empty

tear

sometimes i feel like
the dead in me
has got to go

the "you can't do it
you shouldn't try it
you don't know it

you never were
good enough
anyway"

but if i separated
from the naysayer
within me

would i be conceited
would i know no bounds
would i forget others

would i shine in the sun
until i was burned
to a crisp?

to shed from
the bad
is to hurt
all the good
that conquers the darkness

no matter what the pain

(insane)

combing the night

i'm combing the night
in search of you

a hand to hold
when i feel blue

a feeling of walking
into the stars

the night was ours
for awhile

the galaxies swirl
through the paths
of memory

shining their stars
in the blanks of
inequity

leading the way
to the past
in my heart

where did it start
to go wrong
with us?

can i bring you
back to me?

maybe
with a wave of
my hand

(understand)

out of step

i never think
i'm in step with you

i'm always
lagging behind
(to let you lead)

or barreling ahead
(to find my footing)

never side by side
never eye to eye

always piece by piece
never the whole
thing

in shadow or
blaring sunshine
i'll be

can you find me
in your heart?

(no)

floating (haiku study)

floating in the waves
dulls the sound of my own breath
'til there's nothing more

or

i once believed life
was the drum of his heartbeat
now i drown to it

or

petals move aside
waves push back at loneliness
vision fades away

doubt

this time 

i hope

the dreams will be future

instead of

the times

when life is so futile

i hope

i won't dream 

of sammy davis, jr again

i beg

not to see

the violent zebra rain

one time

i looked up

"why do i dream of falling fingernails?"

it told me 

it was time

to take the weapons away

maybe i'm safe

again

but that's just a dream

(doubt)

recrystallized

i waited all night
for your
beck and call

and i know you
waited
just as long
just to call

but this box
called life
isn't going to open
that far

and this thing
called heart
can't love from
afar

and this beast
called soul
won't live very
long

not long enough
for the vapors
of what i was

to be recrystallized 
at whim

what's the point
of now and then

when there's blanks
that surround
what begins

(end)

sometimes

sometime all you say

isn't enough

anchored (haiku studies)

the thoughts in my mind
always seem to hold me down
the stars seem so far

or

did you ever feel
like the world was weighing down
and the tide was in?