memories

in the palms of aged
dreams of past conquer again
memories in waves

tired

how many times
must i open myself
to you

until you finally get me

how many ways
must i word what i am
to you

until you finally accept me

no trust
at every word
no help
at any step

no chance
that we're speaking
the same language

at all

i was taller
before i met
you

the view was much better

covert

softly guided bird
carrying thoughts over shores
to his guarded heart

along the road

you usually know
which way we are going

so i let you lead

i usually know
what someone is feeling

so you let me guide

and where we go
has meaning
because you thought out
the way

and what we see
has feeling
because i feel out
what we say

and as we travel
to-gether
just me and you

we find out
the strengths between us

two conquering the world
with what we learn

calming the world
with what we love

changing the world
with what we are

along the road
we go

(know)

no feels

slightly stunned
half a person

wondering what happened

overwrought
with all intention

wondering what to do

i can't feel
what i can't touch
i can't touch
what i can't love

i can't be
more than i am

tied to the ground
with all these feelings
i can't feel

and the whole world
to feel in

(numb)

what now is true

there's a fear
of flying
"what's-the-use
in-trying"
attitude of
let down
even before
i touch ground

there's a lack
of something
that was there
before nothing
when we met
as a child

when we were wild

are we the last ones
to linger
in a love that
has stingers
and no perfect
memories
but all the wrong
sensories?

are we the first ones
to disappear
from over there
to beyond here
in such swift
succession
without giving thought
to mention

what once was true

what happened
to me and you?

(true)

message (bottled up)

there are times
i can only communicate
to you

in letters

i don't think it's because
you interrupt

it's more like i interrupt
myself

i don't think it's because
you aren't listening

it's more like i'm sick
of hearing my own words

i hope
whatever floats my boat
will pass through
turbulent waters

to your heart

but i won't be sure
unliess i write it down

painstankingly
with pencil, paper

and bits of my soul

go forth
dear bottle
and grow

(know)

to vision

i used to see
so blurrily

from the 
right side
of my heart

nowhere could be
stereo

couldn't keep
shadows apart

but now i find
at the most unlkely
time

clouds in the distance
floating over me

and now i stop
in the middle of the
day

and let the rain 
wash over me

so many vivid blues
i forgot was there
so many hot reds
cause me to stare

it's like i feel
all over again

it's like i want
to live it all again

to see it clear

and erase what was
hidden in the blur

if only i could

(see)

farther

words on paper move
farther than the sun travels
listen to its heart

line up

line us up
one by one

against the enemy

shadows merge
in the sun

against brutality

don't be aware
of our weapons

of humanity

just listen to
the threatenings

of mortality

before you die

(march)

one more

to others
it was just
a casual breakfast

to them it was the last supper

to others
hurrying along the way
it was a chance to fill
and refill

to them it was one last chance
to make a memory

glasses tinkling
hearts beating
plates clattering
minds wandering

one more course
one last kiss
before it's all cleared away

to others
it was just the passing
of a day

to them it was forever

life in six words

we focus reality

we blur dreams

dayz

i'll tell you
the story
as many times
as you want to hear it

but in return
you have to call me
baby 
like you used to

when we played
across the fields
in uncertain patterns
around each other

looking past
the undertones
looking over
the future woes

into each others
eyes
as the sun
stole our shine

as it slowly
touched the earth
that day

no one knows
what ways
lead back to you

but i'll trace 
them all to 
be true to you

and what
happened
once upon a time

(start)

blue

you turned
on a dime

i was too blind 
to see it

every word
was a trap

love was too hard
to teach it

i thought
you could care

were you too cruel 
to mean it?

i can sit
in the darkness
longer than you

the shadows
are better
than all this blue

(knew)

lean

nose
to the grindstone
head
in the clouds

no one ever knows
what i think out loud

whisper
that you love me
ask
for my embrace

you never knew 
what i hid behind lace

up
with the people
down
with the ship

no one ever hears
what comes from
these lips

nor do they care

(lean)