Wednesday, October 31, 2012

unmasked

you loved me
before you met me

you enthralled me
before i knew you

and slowly
with baby steps

i lowered the mask
to my heart

scared of being someone
you didn't expect

scared of revealing
too much of my frailties

scared of  being the real me


but i found out
almost too quickly
that you had read between the lines

and found me anyway

how much of me
is that transparent?

how much of me
is the freak i think i am?

how much of me
do you truly adore?

how long will your goodness stay?

i'll never know
the answers
from inside
if i hold onto barriers
on the outside

so here i am

accept me for me

and i will love you
for you

no masks
no games
no questions

just the hope
for something real

in a wilderness of masquerade

(new)



Tuesday, October 30, 2012

sketched by light

i let you in
my room

you let me wear
your shirt

i let you listen
to my records

you let me borrow
your dvds

i inspired you
to look beyond
your borders

you showed me
that order
could actually be fun

and as the sun
outlined our kisses
in the morning light

i remembered you
murmuring words
i had written
a thousand times

hoping
they would be said
to me

tracing over
my imperfections
with your strong
caresses

until i was
whole
again

one lifetime
sketched by the sun

can it ever happen again?

(alive)




Saturday, October 20, 2012

then

ever found a quiet place
all to yourself
where you can be yourself
and think things through?

i have

have you ever been
just where you needed to be
and felt like you belonged
to the world
to the sky
to the air

....to everything?

i have

it's a feeling
you would fight
to the death
to feel once more

it's a part of your life
you'd hope to remember
again and again

searching for
where you were
to strengthen
what you are
day after day

holding it
like a talisman
night after night

saying
it was worth the tears
it was worth the fight
to feel reality
for just one night

for just one moment in time......

(wish)