Friday, May 29, 2015

go

if i don't inhale
air
too much

if i softly
walk
along the way

then i won't feel
so much

and the sadness
that's coming
will go away

if i look to the
blue
of the sky

if i try hard to
listen
to each refrain

then i won't crash
so hard

and the heart
that'll weaken
will mend again

go away
sad
go away
pain

let me walk free
for these last few
hours

go away
worry
go away
weak

let me think far
beyond my meager
power

give me the chance
to have reality

before i hide
my vitality

in dreams again

(go)


Thursday, May 28, 2015

about the time

it's right
about the time
when you're
"too sensitive"

it's right
about the time
when you've
worn out your welcome

it's right
about the time
when goodbye
becomes a blessing

and a hurt  
at the same time

you can
honestly say
that you've felt better
than to-day

but you can't
honestly feel
that what you say
will make a difference

day to day
time after time

words won't always 
rhyme

it's what we do with
the silence
that matters

(know)




foraged

sometimes
it's not in the choosing

it's in the journey to
the choice

and that takes two

you can't interrupt
the tracing
of the road

you can't understand
the process
nor the tradition

just
let it alone

leave your
attentions
to the surroundings
around you

don't focus on
the forager

or you'll be
ravaged in the end

(again)




Wednesday, May 27, 2015

quiet

he wants quiet
so often

i want touch
too much

he's mellow and
forgiving

especially when i'm leaning
his way

polished and sophisticated
is he

how could he allow
the loud
of me?

"quiet" he whispers,
with a smile on his face

even though he knows
that silence is out of place
with me around.....

(peace)


Saturday, May 23, 2015

questioning heart

are you warm
enough?

the winds blow
so suddenly
here

and i know
you aren't used
to the cold

are you hungry?

i eat whenever
i feel like a change

i can rearrange
my schedule
for you

are you happy?

i know the truth
is hard to say

but give me a clue
that i'm making
your day

better than it was
before

did you know
that i love you?

no matter what's
in store

no matter no more

just you

(new)


Monday, May 18, 2015

reunion

with hesitation
and fear

i quiver near

with compassion
and hope

you draw forth

with whispers
and calm

i come around

with wishes
and chance

we dance

learning 
to be us
again

(grow)




Thursday, May 14, 2015

pep talk to the working mother, far from her child

there are two people
watching him

there are two people
who will call
and see if he's ok

he's ok

he's the baby
of the family

but he's not a baby

he's a boy
who will tell
how he's feeling

let it go, elsa
don't make a scene

mothers
have been working
for thousands
of years
without worry

he's not cursed
with your sickness

he'll live
(and you will, too)

relax


Wednesday, May 13, 2015

lament

i'm last
on your list
but first
in your heart

when did we grow
so far apart?

(?)


Tuesday, May 12, 2015

blurred

i didn't ask for it 
to end

it just did

it was colourful
and funny 
and frantic
and sunny

and it burst 
into flames
in the night

blinding our sight

i didn't wish for it
to stop

it had to

my heart beat faster
than it ever did 
before

i couldn't take anymore

so i settled for less

(spin)


Thursday, May 7, 2015

futility

stuck
in a place
that i usually love

hurting
and worrying 
about her

knowing
she walks
the path that i did

wobbly and unsure

anger
stands beside her
holding it all in

intolerance
guides her
even while smiling

why can't i be there?
why can't i help
the one that counts?

it isn't fair
it isn't fair
it isn't fair

hold on
i'll be there
as soon as i can

(believe)


Tuesday, May 5, 2015

observation

torn in half
and behind your hands
you laugh

carve out pain
and behind your looks
you reign

thank you 
mr. sir
for what you think of me

but you can never know me




emo nursery rhyme

i defer
you protest

i'm a silly 
lazy mess

you concur
i respect

i sit out in
hopelessness

i desire
you suppress

i will never
pass this test

you conceal
i deflect

stuck inside
my loneliness





Monday, May 4, 2015

opposites

you
constant and annoying
shrill and loud

i can't get enough of you

me
quiet and organized
soothing and sure

you see a lot in me

we
from opposite sides of never
leading to the forever
in us

searching for the sun

(now)

audio version: https://soundcloud.com/jamison99/rec-2016-03-04-from-05-11-01-to-05-11-37


Friday, May 1, 2015

advice

remember what you've learned, don't stress about the new. learn from everyone.  listen, then talk.  i'll never heed this advice, but maybe one of you will.......

:)