Tuesday, May 31, 2016


it's never easy
talking to you

but it's worth it

i never know
what you'll say

but i'm glad you say it

and when
the storm clouds

and nothing is
but everything is

there's a tiny part
of me
in your eyes

waiting to help

even if all i do
is sit
and say nothing


Sunday, May 29, 2016

futile promise

i'm sorry

i scream with you
in your pain

i'm sorry

i want to hug you
again and again

i'm sorry

i know there's nothing
i can do

from so far
so far
so far away

your cries
burn into my heart
every time i
hear them

across the line

there will be
no time
that i hurt you
that much

this i say

but i know
you'll never believe
me anyway


Saturday, May 28, 2016


can't seem to put
a label
on your emotions

you smile
and shadow
like the light
behind the clouds

you bold
and falter
like a fawn
near his mother

can't seem to win
against what
you think you are

and what 
i believe i am

stand true
for once
in the whisper
of my promise

and trust me again

i promise to be worthy


Thursday, May 26, 2016

far from romance

you scar me
with careful words

meant to keep me
in your place

you scare me
with sudden gestures

meant to keep me
in your heart

you don't know
how unsettling

your kind of romance is

you do know
your bloodletting

is far from what bliss is

building implode
at the touch of a bomb

but i have to go on
and pretend you don't
get to me


Saturday, May 21, 2016

and that was that

he didn't want
to tell her

he didn't want
to share the moment

the decision was

and he wanted to
keep his feelings
to himself

for he truly knew he
and how it was
supposed to be

and that was that

she sensed something
and he let her

she felt something
and he dissuaded her

her logic was

so she learned to
keep her worries
to herself

for he truly knew she
and how it was
supposed to be

and that was that

now he looks
at the aftermath

and tries to reason

and she listens
to his words

and tries to smile

both feeling
a change they can't

faltering at words
that should come

to two once free
with each other

but that was that

audio version here: https://soundcloud.com/jamison99/and-that-was-that

Monday, May 16, 2016

the manners

when it all comes down
to it

you don't know anyone here

and every mistake
is uniquely yours

and defines you

so watch what you say
and what you do

don't be anything
but perfect
in this scenario

what's in front of you
is the truth

what's behind you
is a lie

and what's with you
is something
in between



he's not gonna
listen to you

night and day

like i do

he's not gonna

your in's and out's

like i do

he's not gonna

the girl you want
to be

the rainbows
that you think
you don't see

the traps
you used to lay
for me

before i got wise

he'll learn to despise
all that you're about

before you can say

let him go

you know he won't
travel your mind
with you

like i do

you'll see
soon enough

but not soon enough
for me

time's not there
for me

like it is for you

travel backwards to
your happiness

come back to me


Sunday, May 8, 2016


a turn of a phrase
a turn at bat

a turn of the other cheek

a turn of the conversation
so sudden so sudden

a turn that was meant for meek

reverse to safer ground
my friend

revert to who you were

return to what
you thought was

rebuke all that you've learned

in hopes you won't
get burned


Saturday, May 7, 2016

what really matters

casual day
careless words
back and forth

sunny day
smooth caresses
up and down

mellow day
meaningful looks
to and fro

alive in secret
dead to shadows

what really matters
is you


Monday, May 2, 2016

dead end

it's what we say
at the end of the road

that's the most important

when we know
that hearts are parting
and we realize
that what completes us

will be on pause once more

do you believe
that what we have been
these few short hours

will be enough to carry us through?

or is this a walk
to our dead end
where truth is whispered

but goodbyes are never said?

let go
of what you think you were
and hold fast
to what you hope we'll be

maybe there's a reality
in between

there's nothing left
to do
but be


poem inspired by this prompt: http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2016-april-pad-challenge-day-30