Thursday, July 30, 2015

clarity

she's not
there 
anymore

there's no one
left
to see

you're too
tenderhearted

you don't realize

she's older
than the wars
that ravage in your head

best let her go
with the thought of her
in my memory

not the reality
that's lying far away

i promise
to always help
you

i promise
to keep my love
near

i hope
that we can be
to-gether

as long as it lasts

as long
as the spirit of you
surrounds you

that's
how long
i'll be around

(live)


constants

tracing time
with words

hard to explain
and fumbling

remember time
with scenes

blurry from the dawn

stumbling over
situations

hands in constant
struggle

keeping apart
in what we are

but remembering
the coupling
inside

(true)



Wednesday, July 29, 2015

questions

i know
you don't walk
through
your lands
in silence

you live

and i know
you don't grieve
the lost times

but do you
remember them?

and,
in the
reflection
of the adorations,

do you wince
in pain?

or do you
shake your
head

wistfully

brush the
memory
of me

off your 
shoulder

and
walk on?

(ask)



Sunday, July 19, 2015

reuniting

it begins with a hug,
usually.

a smile,
and a little giggle

but even as it starts,
i'm drawing away

from the height
from the powerful
voice

from the eyes
clear as the ocean
staring right at me

willing me to speak

as we walk
he comes into focus
once more

and he becomes
the person
behind the voice
that i've breathed
with

every day 
for
all these years

he matches me
step for step
as we look
for a place
to pause

taking my hand
and guiding me
away from the
mayhem

and closer to him
once more

(calm)







Wednesday, July 8, 2015

different roads, different hearts

driving
down the road

concave
in posture
from the pain

not knowing
where to go

not knowing
what's ahead

just driving away
from her
and what was so
certain

just moments before

were the words
planned?

did she know
from the beginning
that forever
wasn't there?

or
did she realize
as she filled in
the blanks
of his heart

that she was 
coming up empty 
in her soul?

learning
to let go

beginning to see
that what you were
leaning to be

just wasn't there
anymore

what's in store
for the driver?

what's on its way
for the one who stays?

who gives away
their heart
without a clue?

eyes of blue
cloudy with rain

let the insanities
be few
for the one
who seeks the
sun

and the one
who dreams
with the mermaids

(grow)



Tuesday, July 7, 2015

see me

don't let me
become
a duty

a task
that must be done

don't check me
off on
a list

as something
that must be won

i thought
we were equals

i thought
we met eye to eye

i thought
we were mates

i thought
we felt heart to heart

i thought wrong

don't see me
as
a good deed

willing
to be rescued

live with me
as
a partner

willing
to be true

as long as you
remember me
by your side

not lagging behind

(see)


season for rain

it's not your job
to fix me

it's not your
responsibility
to smooth out
all the mountains

let the rain
fall on me

let me experience
what has to
happen

no matter how cold
no matter how old
it makes me

let me learn
from the bad
as i stumble toward
the good

don't let me bring
you down

one of us
has to survive
(it should be you)

one of us
has to fail
(it must be me)

let me be me
and perhaps the sun
will shine on us
again

even in the storms
there's lightning
to see us through

(new)


Saturday, July 4, 2015

it's ok

it's ok
you can stomp on
my heart

and walk away

it's ok
as i hang up
the lifeline

and act hurt

it's ok
to be
the victim

and linger in the rain

it's ok
it's ok

but it's not

even though
you hurt me
only to heal me

even though
you tell me
what i need to be

even so
i hurt me
to change for you

even so
i tell myself
i can't be

who you need me
to be

no matter
how much
i hide

my heart

it's ok
i'm sure the tides
will change

it's ok
i'm sure the wind
will bring reason

it's ok
i'm glad that
the sun rises

in the eyes
of one

who'll still call

no matter how
hard the tears
may fall

it's ok

(ok)





crystal clear

i was
crystal clear
once

i was
see no fear
once

i walked
in the sun

was always
on the run

and never
looked back

away
was my motto

never stay
was my motive

never thought
i could be

what they
saw in me

never believed
in their truth

(still don't)