going

there were
many times
when we were to-gether
that i had no idea
where we were going

the road
rolled out of an
endless spool
taking us further
and further
from your home

until i wasn't sure
what state
we were in

physically
as well as
mentally

but
when i leaned my head
on your shoulder

i knew i was safe

and
when i reached for
your hand
as we walked

i knew i was connected

and
when i closed
my eyes
and listened to
your voice

i could feel
the love
in every word that
you said

even if
all you were saying
was
"it's just around the corner....."

 home is just down the street

(near)

walking moon

when i begin to think
about the many times
i've walked home alone

with only
the tracings of another
to guide my way back

i start thinking about
how i've grown up
inside

into an independence
i never was suited to

searching aimlessly for home

some say the moon
can calm you

shining a light
down roads
unfamiliar to your sight

but i always saw
the moon
as a willful witness

adorning
lovers
with a ghost-like glow

while chilling
the heart of the
lonely ones

right down to the very bone



(search)

matched

sometimes i worry
that you become weary
over
all the attention
i show you

and that all the fuss
i make
is seen as some
silly girl crush

not to be believed

but then i see you
meet my ardor
with a loving look
in return

and i hear you
tell me of your love
(before i have a chance
to babble)

and when i feel you
squeeze me close
and in a single movement

lift me in the air

i'm floating
in your strength

and i'm living
in your love

and i'm knowing
all over again

that i'm as
cherished
as i ever hoped
to be

leaning into
a certainty

of one well met with me
(true)



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unmasked

you loved me
before you met me

you enthralled me
before i knew you

and slowly
with baby steps

i lowered the mask
to my heart

scared of being someone
you didn't expect

scared of revealing
too much of my frailties

scared of  being the real me


but i found out
almost too quickly
that you had read between the lines

and found me anyway

how much of me
is that transparent?

how much of me
is the freak i think i am?

how much of me
do you truly adore?

how long will your goodness stay?

i'll never know
the answers
from inside
if i hold onto barriers
on the outside

so here i am

accept me for me

and i will love you
for you

no masks
no games
no questions

just the hope
for something real

in a wilderness of masquerade

(new)

sketched by light

i let you in
my room

you let me wear
your shirt

i let you listen
to my records

you let me borrow
your dvds

i inspired you
to look beyond
your borders

you showed me
that order
could actually be fun

and as the sun
outlined our kisses
in the morning light

i remembered you
murmuring words
i had written
a thousand times

hoping
they would be said
to me

tracing over
my imperfections
with your strong
caresses

until i was
whole
again

one lifetime
sketched by the sun

can it ever happen again?

(alive)

expects

it's never going to be
the way you pictured it

hearts and flowers
don't often dwell
on the same tree

and it's never going to be
the way you want it

sometimes the good
you deserve
is only going to live in
your mind

but if you live your life
creatively
and you open your eyes
widely

the things you get
will become
the things you need

and the blessings you find
will become
the hopes you treasure

if you just let go of
the fantasy
and see through
the reality

with your heart

(dwell)



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then

ever found a quiet place
all to yourself
where you can be yourself
and think things through?

i have

have you ever been
just where you needed to be
and felt like you belonged
to the world
to the sky
to the air

....to everything?

i have

it's a feeling
you would fight
to the death
to feel once more

it's a part of your life
you'd hope to remember
again and again

searching for
where you were
to strengthen
what you are
day after day

holding it
like a talisman
night after night

saying
it was worth the tears
it was worth the fight
to feel reality
for just one night

for just one moment in time......

(wish)