Saturday, July 27, 2024

covert wedding poem

rehearsing
and nursing the part

the part that comes
from the heart

there's so much 
i want to say

to prove this is right
to show what is real

to learn from it all

what was 
supposed to happen 
happens now

may the child within you
grow
may the sadness within me
die

may we both learn 
to hope

no matter what happens 
around us

surround us with peace
and love

please

that's all i think we need

today, anyway

(betray)




cynical wedding poem

in the world of
supposed-to-haves

and could-have-beens

we stand in repose
to the point of dozing

waiting to say our lines

do we mean it this time?

do we feel the weight
of the words?

do we understand 
what we stand here saying?

and does it all matter
anyway

(nay)





Friday, July 19, 2024

empathy

we just
took a step together

why did you have to 
tear it apart

we just
said the word forever

why did you have to
break my heart?

if i just keep busy
and hide from my coworkers

the mother
the poet
the teenagers

then i'll be ok

my bright blues 
won't be blurred
by the serious browns 
watching me

no matter what they see

(hide)





retracings

 she cared so much
for you

eloquent words from
years of pain

i read them again and again

torturing myself
i suppose

after all, i'm different
or so i'd like to think

don't dive into the drink
too many times, poet

you're all the same to me

(redundance)




Thursday, April 25, 2024

24/7

no chance to silence
myself

no chance to walk away
and calm myself

always on
always pleasing
always being the one ideal

(it isn't ideal)





Wednesday, November 15, 2023

precipice

things seem more sincere
when it's the last time
you're going to do them

loving touches in
routine duties

memorable lines in
rote conversations

makes meaning
in the madness

if i could pause
each time i talk 
to someone today

just to say
thank you thank you thank you
for sharing your health
and energy
and point of view

i would

but talk becomes tedious
when preparing for the end

(and it will be the end of something)

takes the will away

the will that says
thank you thank you thank you 
for these moments 
of usefullness 

however fleeting

and lead me to the grey
gently, please

no longer me but even still free

in the back of my eyes

(wise)




Saturday, October 14, 2023

who i helped today

a woman who's a bit cantankerous
who came with a wish list of demands
that she'll probably be mad about later
looking at me with a judgemental eye
(probably about my earrings)
clink

a man who wanted help with google ads 
since i worked in the public sector i should be an expert in 
google ads
how dare you type my question in google
oh there's the answer
thanks 

a child being sent in
by her mother
to pick up a romance novel
with "concubine" in the title
"would you like a plastic bag?"
yes, please, and a unicorn sticker
surely

a man 
carefully walking
his stature still tall
but precarious
his clothes too big
for his thinning frame

he patiently waited
for copies he needed
i tried hard not to act differently
when i found out
it was his last will and testament
written cautiously in brilliant cursive

he received colorful paper clips 
and a special folder
to carry his burdens
and all the attention i could muster
without seeming too weird

much talk about the weather, 
and autumn days
from long ago

where does it all go