diverse mornings

in the morning
she was an arm's length away

sucking the oxygen
from the room
with every snore

twitching the blankets
off my side of the bed

with every tremble

in the morning
he was a million miles away

renewing the energy
in my existence
with every breath

giving up the warmth
that he didn't need

to keep me from trembling

(both)

walk past woman

i only found out to-day
that you're seeing him
and i'm supposed to be fine
with it

i only saw through your eyes
what you see in him
and i'm supposed to be ok
with it

but i can't see what
you're thinking of me

and i can't ask why
you're walking with him

and i can't know much
about where you walk

because i gave up that trip
long ago

when you left me in the woods
as you walked towards
your own particular sun

without one look back
at me

(grow)

thoughts during writing class

i watch the way my hand
makes shadows across my sight

cutting through the light
with darkness abound

everyone around scribbles
sophistication from their brow

but all i do now is stumble
over the side

trying to shorten the ride
through the maze within
my heart

(what a start)

remembering

no one

will ever see it

Yes they will.

we won't remember

where it is

Yes we will.

we won't remember

to come back

Yes we will.

We'll remember the day,

long ago,

when the sun was perfect

and the weather was mild

The day you sat for hours,

making sure

I spelled your name right

And I teased you 

for never remembering

my middle name

And even when 

this branch bridge

rots and falls away

We'll visit this place

in heart and mind 

forever

franklin?

Almost ....

keep trying...

....you have a lifetime to learn

(believe)

 

reality

file me in between
your worst fears
and your greatest dreams

i never was one
or the other

only for a day

to-day we drizzle
into a wet afternoon

full of promises

of food
and to-getherness
searching
and forgiveness

light laughter 
breaking up the clouds

i could sit for hours
and look at your smile
if you'd let me

smile again
and this world changes

bright sunbeams
instead of grey

if only for a day

taking a break

take a break
long enough to forget
what he said

take a break
long enough to feel
what he meant

take a break
long enough
to silence the yells
inside

the growls
outside

the thoughts of
frustration
from all sides

take a break
long enough to forgive
yourself

for not wanting
to forgive things
anymore

(break)