sketched

just a shadow
to what you are

just an echo
of what you say

just an agreement
to whatever
you wish

just a thought
along the way

will you ever know
what i'm trying
to tell you?

or will i always be
the whisper
that you'll never
hear?

lost in the sounds
of reason and right

trapped in my heart again

(notice)

again

you didn't hear me

you didn't even try
to understand

you were all about you

and as your jokes
ran over the path
of my rational thinking

i sighed
and let you win

letting you make sense
with your nonsense

as i closed my heart again

(learn)

unknown

scarred
into what i am

far away from the girl
that i was

walking back
to what's normal

if i can

i don't think i'll ever
be the same

i don't think the rain
will cleanse me now

i don't know
whether i want to go back

to me

too tired
to sit still

to awake
to get my fill
of any in this imperfect life

where will i go now?

just wait
and see

and never believe again

(go)

lead on

you know

you call the shots to my heart

but instead 

of looking on helplessly

i learn from you

every time you lead

walking in someone's shadow

used to be so constricting

but with you i see the sun

in everything you do 

for me

lead me

to those dream filled days

where nothing else matters

but the dreams we make come true

(anew)

skeptically

not fine
for a while

not ok
by a long shot

not cured of anything
until they say so

why is the day so
out of sync?

give me one reason
to feel the faith
that you
so assuredly speak

and i will turn
my weak self away

and follow you
until the end of our days

oh may we grow strong to-gether

(truth)

forever sun

i felt alive once
i felt like i
could rule the world
i felt alive
and then the storm came

i felt hope once
i felt like everyone
was on my side
i felt hope
and then the clouds came

and in the darkness
i felt the rain
and in the sadness
i felt the pain

and i leaned
on the mutterings
of myself above others

imagining myself
far away from the crowd
dodging the shadows
avoiding all the clouds

teaching myself
over and over again
how to come back to myself
how to be me again

hopeful again
in the darkest days

on the hunt for the forever sun

(run)

scribbles

did you know
every poem
was about you?

did it trouble you
to see me
spill out my love
with every word?

did you wish
i would stop reaching
for the pen
instead of facing you
and talking to you?

or did you even read at all?

(write)