Saturday, July 25, 2020

silently

so many times
i have to
suffer

quietly

and tell no one
how i truly feel

that's not unusual

everyone hides
something

whether it be
how they feel
about someone

how they feel
around someone

or how they feel
under someone

my grammar
may be crude
and my manner
may be rude

but i won't tell
how i truly feel

even with you

not that you'd notice
my truth
anyway

we all 
have veils

(trail)



6 comments:

  1. She's blue, she looks a lot like you;
    although you have much prettier lips.
    But am I listening to her silence - or yours?
    You're not a nun; discard the veil . . . .

    (I am trying to see)

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    1. it's funny how other people's prompts leads me in and out of what i'm going through right now. the poetry group i am in is years better than i'll ever be... i'm glad they endure this crap i write :)

      "she looks a lot like you" makes me think of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuiEWVvETss
      and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6StORhP7n2c i swear my youtube playlists are so weird!

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  2. The Clocks video was hilarious - I added it to my Fun Songs playlist on (she looks a lot like) YouTube. The song rings a bell, but I don't remember the video at all. The Stylistics drifted me back to the drinking dancing disco days of yore. (not your yore; my yore)

    If your (yore?) poetry group is a good as you believe (that is, "years better") remember me to Lord Byron. But I don't believe they are. Tho I may have more confidence than you . . . .or do I mean in you? . . . .in your poetry? ANYWAY, I wish I could write a lot like you. Hell, lately I've been wishing I could write ANYTHING . . . . my muse has turned into Lot's wife. Like Pygmalion, I stand around waiting for her to feel the thrill of life along her keel. . . . and hope is sinking. But thank you for the poems, the memories, and the conversation !

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    1. thanks. you know if i write a lot, either i'm going through it, or i'm living my best life, and i want to capture it for later on...
      it'll all work out, i suppose.

      these people don't lord byron as much as they use metaphor, and depth, and irony, and all the other stuff that people like me in the back of the bus don't get, but want to be like. oh well..
      one time, a cool guy in the back of the bus wanted to know why his soon to be ex-girlfriend sent him the lyrics to air supply's "making love out of nothing at all." now *that* i could understand....

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  3. Last night I finished reading a reminiscence by Jessamyn West titled 'Hide and Seek' - about her joy in solitude. In one chapter she related her experiences when coming of age and discovering the opposite sex. She proposed that there is a difference between "being in love" and "loving someone". The first is more a matter of oneself, whereas the second is more a matter of the concentration upon another. It struck me as sound reasoning - and might keep somebody from being run over in the back by a bus !

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    1. i think you mentioned this rascal before. i'll have to look into it.
      love does not equal reason, a lot of the time. i suppose it's because love is closer to the heart than it is the brain. makes me wonder what it would be like if love was closer to the spleen, or the small intestine.

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