gone

i felt you
slip away
the moment i thought
i had you

i clutched
at the nothingness
night after night

trying to figure out
what was said
or what i thought

to make you
turn from me

and even now
i look
inside my heart

thinking
of what i was
and what i can't be

and what you saw
in me

those first few shining days
when i was perfect


(hide)

watch

you're never
going to get me
entirely

it won't be your fault

the book hasn't been
written
to explain what i'm
thinking

the picture hasn't been
taken
to show you what i
see

and there will be
days
when all i can do
to keep my
sanity

is walk away
from your
strong embrace

no matter how
warm
you are

no matter how
much
you listen

i'm the one

who has to
understand me
first

before i can even
reach a hand out
to you

let me walk away

and i'll come back
just that much
stronger

even if
i'm deathly afraid
of each step
i take

(wait)

your marilyn

i don't want to be
your marilyn
mixing you all up
in my pain

no, i don't want to be
your marilyn
clinging to you
when it all
comes down

i want to be the one
who'll listen to you
all night

not with all the
answers,
but just the right
questions

to guide you back home

but i can't help you
with the torment
still inside

i can't support you
with the hell
all around me

i have to stop
and grow
myself

before i can
turn loving eyes
to you

before
i can understand
the dark side
of you

(truth)

apart

it was time
to go

no question

the air was
getting colder
the time was
getting shorter

he knew he had to leave

so he drew back
from her embrace,
zipped up his jacket,

and walked on

she followed
his form
with her eyes

mesmerized
by the confident way
he walked

would he
turn around
at least once?

would he look
and see her
looking hopefully
at him?

she watched him
until he turned
at the old
familiar corner

watched him
stop

touch the wall

and look
straight at her

he smiled
blew her a kiss

and walked on

she smiled
inside

let go
of the breath
she had
desperately
hung on to

wiped the
tears
from her cheek

and moved on
to the rest of
her day

(relax)


audio version here:  http://soundcloud.com/jamison99/apart

all over again

in quiet times
i'll carry your love
within my heart

to hold inside
and discover
and feel its power

all over again

in desperate times
i'll carry your words
within my head

to remember once more
and listen to
and linger with

all over again

and
in another time
i'll carry my hopes
within my soul

to take out
and share with you
and feel you care

all over again

audio version: http://soundcloud.com/jamison99/all-over-again

runaway

if you knew
you were running away
i know
you would call me
first

and like the flash
i'd be there
in the early morning
downpour

ready to hold
your too light
suitcase

listening to you
rage on
about
the darkness
in your soul
and the heaviness
in your heart

and when i
hear you talk
about
the
cool sound
our feet make
on the wet cobblestone
path

then
i would suggest
that
a trip to the pancake house
would be needed
before you left
the country

and over the syrup
and the butter
and the orange juice
i hope you would
look at me

sigh

and realize
you were already
at peace

and then
and only then
would i lean in
quietly
(over coffee and cream)

and kiss your fears away

(stay)

audio version:  http://soundcloud.com/jamison99/runaway

deal

don't tell me
you know what i'm thinking

(i haven't figured it out
myself)

and don't tell me
you know how i'm living

(i'll never understand
the rocky tides
within me}

just tell me
you'll be near
when i'm at my loudest

tell me
you'll stay close
when i'm at my saddest

and i'll try
to believe you

i promise
i will always try
to understand you

and the calmness
that you bring

until the
very end
of my complex days

(meld)



audio version here:  http://soundcloud.com/jamison99/deal