14- if i learn

i get scared
that i won't be
me again

but then i think
what's the point 
of all this?

if i learn
from the pain

so be it

if i learn
from the loneliness
then that's good, too

if i learn
to depend on me
not the reflection of me
in the eyes of another

then no matter how
weak
my body gets

my spirit will soar
and live on

stronger
than before

if i just learn
from all the darkness

the light 
will heal me again

(grow)