death in dreams to come

i have a fear
of death

you wouldn't
think so
with all the
books i read

about dead
celebrities,
archaic maladies,

suicides

and other sad
subjects

sometimes
i lie in bed

thinking of
the last moment
of agony

was there
a clarity
just before it went dark?

i never thought
i would die
of my plague

i was always
told
i would conquer
cancer

but the closer
i get
to the sun going
down

the more i fear
that i haven't done
enough

for everyone

i just want to help
while i can
when i can
for who i can

before the end
takes the colours away

(stay)


prompt: http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-april-pad-challenge-day-18