it was a dark and rainy night

it was a dark
and rainy night
outside of the restaurant

a reflection
of the inside
blurred
with the outside
on the glass next to her

she saw
a ghost of herself
trying to hard
to be human

at a table
full of strangers

she wondered why
things had to be
the way
they had to be

love
in pause
apathy
in full play

eyes darting away
from what was
being said

and what wasn't

how long
can you live
a life of avoidance
just for the chance
of happiness?

she watched the lights
far away from her
as they twinkled
in the distance

quietly beckoning her home

poem inspired by this prompt:   http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2015-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-28