outlook unclear

it's only when
you are truly alone
that you realize 
your own worth

not what he thinks
not what she thinks
not what they believe
not what they know

but what you know
and feel inside

some say 
never apologize 
for your own beliefs

some say 
stride ahead
on your own path

but i never wrote anything
but what he thought

and i never walked anywhere
under my own power

and ever footfall was 
softened
by someone else

the outlook's unclear
when you can't see
with your own eyes

depending on the call
of others

staying out in the rain
with no sense but nonsense

blank to the stars again

(can't win)