disappear

i am ready
to go

but it isn't time yet

there's too much 
turmoil
there's too much 
hate

there's too many grey
areas in this world

i want to time it where
there's no question
but to go

i want to make them all
tired of me

i want to suck all the love
of me away from them
so they won't suffer

i want to erase myself
from whatever 
they remember

until they have enough 
memories where they 
stood against the wind
strong

without a tear in their eye

and faced their own kind of
happiness

soon enough this blueness
will end

and i'll fade to black easily

as if i was never there

and truly, i never was....

(gone)