you won

walking
in the chilled air
hesitating
with each
step
carefully plotting
each thought in my head

all for naught

i tripped
again
i misspoke
again
i unraveled
again

and you won

why must we
continue this
tedious play

where i'm
insanity
and you're
reality

and never the twain
shall meet

one more
choked back word
one more
given up dream
will cause me to
vanish

right before your eyes

not that
you'll ever miss me

you never saw me
to begin with

(erase me)