that's all

there comes a point

when you aren't useful

in someone's life

anymore

distance after distance

pushes all feeling away

until you await 

emotion

in this box of

empty thought

small sicknesses

long hours at work

fatigue

all become 

excuses

to prolong the silence

until there's 

nothing left 

to say 

except goodbye

thanks for all the fish

don't remember me

and

goodbye

(tried)

anti-dream

dreams 

don't mean anything

loose teeth will come out

when they want to come out

sleeping deep

is more satisfying

keep that imagery away

don't underline

the carelessness 

of your dream self

whatever you did 

was in jest

strengthen the heart

that's beside yourself

don't dream the goodness away

(stay)

why she broke up with me

well, first of all,

it's none of your business

i'm kidding

i know you're only asking 

because you care

and you've been nice to us

and stuff

so i guess i can tell you

at first

she told me not to hover so much

so i stood away

then she told me

i was too far away

so i moved closer

then she said that was too close 

and if i really knew her i'd be able

to measure just how far i was 

supposed to be from her 

at any given time

i told her 

i didn't know if i could know anyone

that good

then she cried

and turned away

and that ended it

it's stupid, huh?

after all this time of me 

walking across the street

to meet her

and walking back with her

to see her

and i never knew

i was close enough 

to the end 

of me and her

thanks for being my friend

but i can't talk about it

anymore

(lore)