would you

i come to
impart

what's in my
heart

stop staring at
my soul

i'm out of
control

and you're there
just looking

and staring
and seeing
and reacting
and being

but not saying
a word

like a piece of
wood

strong but silent
through the ages

i wish you could read
the rest of my pages

OUT LOUD

before my book
is through

which may be
soon

(be)

one

they say
you should count
sheep

when you want
to fall asleep

the routine tone
counting in numbers
that go on and on

seem to subdue you
into a trance-like
state

one hopes 
sleep 
is at the gate

but i always picture
one hesitant lamb

leaning alone
with a crooked 
stand

trying hard to understand
the bravery it takes
to fly through the air

just like everyone else

i try to believe
in what you want me
to see

in your dreams 

but i can't let go
of the oddity

that's always me

(flee)

pondering paradise

as he put on
the gardenia
that she sent backstage

he saw me looking
at him strange

and he averted my eyes
in the glare of the
footlights

trying so hard
to shrug off
my gaze

"look i know what
your thinking"

he muttered in
his musical voice

"she's the devil
to you

but she's what's left
of heaven
to me"

he slung his guitar strap
across his shoulder

covered his heart

and walked
into the shadows
one last time

(john)

dark senyrus

1
all i have to give
is the end of all your lives
in return, you bow

2
if you ever thought
you would live eternally
you should think again

3
i hide what i love
wondering would you still like me
if you knew the truth

buds

you and i
partners in crime

out of the time
of gentlemen and ladies

you masked
half way
to oblivion

me wearing
the stripes
i inherited

time and again
though my travels

but not a victim
am i

not a convict
are you

we travel
side by side

riding fast in
the wind

apropros of nothing
we begin again

in fancy british
accents we sing

only the songs
that make us new

(true)

moon senryus

the moon leans on me

i push back with all i am

craving all its light

_____________________________

don't you ever wish

you could touch the moon like this

transitory bliss

______________________________

once the whole of me

was lighted by the dark of you

now i've lost my way

lesson

the rain came suddenly
from far away

hailing down on
new bridges built

from hope

it brought the wind
that swayed us back
and forth

weakening whatever
resolve we had

it's funny how
it all can turn grey

all at once

and no matter
what you say
and no matter
how you feel
and no matter how

you try to be

nothing keeps you
from the deluge
from above

fall down on me
cold fingers from high

teach me why you have to
hide the sun

i won't try to run
from your lessons
again

(rain)

muted

sometimes 
all it takes

is seeing 
the true colours 
of another

bleed across 
your floor

telling you 
no more 
needs to be said

(dread)

slanted

they say
half a life lived

is better than none

but the half of what
i have
to live

is run by what's
dead

inside of me

and my body goes

in spite of me

sideways across the way

there is no logic
to this day

(away)

futility

i gave you all

you didn't need

food and warmth

were at your disposal

you took from me

what i didn't have

making me regret

my heart's proposal

you left me blind

to what i was

reaching for freedom

beyond my obscurity

i tried to see

where i had been

but nothing was true

in all the futility

all the stupidity 

was mine to have

and yours to use

at your will

(still)

stumbling on

i used to hold you
by the hand

guide you up
the stairs

to my heart and
always

but you stumbled
along the way

misunderstandings
leading to
confusions

as you lagged behind

and now
while i can feel
the shadow of your love

reaching towards me
in the darkness

all i can feel
is the cold air
that surrounds me

the heart that pounds
in me

and the ground
that's ever-closer to
my soul

i'm too old
for this pretend

tend to me
no more

(go)