balance

in your
sweeping changes
of good

don't forget 
the past

love her
protect her

dry her tears

but don't
substitute her memory
with all of
yourself

allow her
to remember
the past
and what was

no matter 
how distant
no matter
how sad

help her know
what's been
wonderful
as well as
what will be
wonderful

and her place
in the world
will strengthen

in the wisdom
of to-morrow
and to-day

(balance)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-29

in spite of me

had we met
in normality

you wouldn't
have given me
half a chance

had we talked
in formality

you wouldn't
have known me
quite so well

oh, what the hell
maybe you would
have seen me

in spite of me

but i'm not so sure

(nope)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-28

whisper of promise

you never were
as pretty
as you are to-night

and your hair
tickles so nicely
as you lean close
to me

and you smell
so beautifully
better than bacon
and gin

and you walk in
like you own
the place
and me

and you do 

and i want
to tell you
what you mean
to me

before we get
too much
into it

but all i can do
is lean against you

and the warmth
of your humanity

whispering a
promise that i
hope you cannot
hear

about the sun
and a home
and the rain
and your place
in my heart

oh, don't start asking me now

just listen
to what the words
could say

if i could only
find a way

to tell you

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-27

shine

i don't remember
days or nights
so perfectly

(as perfectly
as you)

i see times
blurred in
sunshine and
light

(even in
the rain)

you'll remind me
why a place is
important

(right down to
longitude)

but it won't
matter to a
foggy brain

(so full of the
instant and now)

one day
i'll show you
the greatest shine
of the mooon

or a perfect turn
of the tide
twisting at the
corner
of your eye

just beyond your reach

until then
i'm chipping away
at the hours

clicking and clacking
what's left
of a memory

hoping for home
before darkness

long time away

(shine)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-26

the way he's remembered

watching eyes

careful heart

that he was

sardonic spirit
sideways smile

that he was

and even though

the memory 

of his touch

fades 

day to day

i can still 

conjure up

the way he made

me feel

when he whispered

to me

set free my emotions

one more time

before the end

of my walk

(be)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-25

the way she's remembered

thoughtful eyes

caring heart

that she was

hopeful spirit

helping smile

that she was

and even though

the memory 

of her voice

fades 

day to day

i can still 

conjure up

the way she made

me feel

when she whispered

to me

set free my emotions

one more time

before the end

of my walk

(be)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-24

preface to a diary

before i let you
read this poetry journal
you need to know
some things

i don't write very well
(in fact, you may not
be able to decipher all
these words.  when i
let it all out, my writing slants
this way and that, trying hard
to pull the emotions
out of me.  footnotes will be
provided)

i seldom rhyme
(so how can it be poetry?
but, then again, when i try
to rhyme, i end up sounding
like some demented dr. seuss
or a clean limerick that won't
get to the point.... so why try?)

i consider myself
a poet only because
i see things differently
(and explain things
laboriously

like that one time
i said that someone was
in the spell of delusion,
and
under a clouded umbrella

and several other mumbled phrases
until my co-worker asked
"why can't you just say he's insane
like everyone else?")

i'm not like everyone else
for better or for worse

so, be kind as you judge......

(read)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-23

last day

i finally
deleted
all the emails
you sent me

in one fell swoop

then i set
the settings so i'll
never see

anything from you
again

and i sighed
that little sigh
that's been buried inside

for quite some time

waiting for the feeling
of freedom
that's supposed to come

when it's over

i guess it's been done
for longer than
to-day

just waiting
for me to give in

and even though
i've done
what it takes to
be done

i have to wait for
the joy to begin

just wait for the
joy to begin
again

(soon)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-22

deconstruction

i just asked you

where you wanted

to go to eat

i didn't expect this

deconstruction

of everything you 

hold dear

sometimes 

all i want 

is a simple

yes or no

not a rocking

tower of

syllables 

quaking with emotion

over absolutely 

nothing

your problem is

you take everything

so seriously

what happened to 

the giggly girl 

i was enchanted by

a few short years away?

why does everything

become all

fraught with meaning

when it's just 

simply you 

and direct me

trying to get along?

downsize

your expectations

and 

learn to let go

of your feelings

before i turn away

not that you'd even 

notice 

in between words

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-21

learned

what's past
is past

the future?
who knows

what friends remember
seems so hard to forget

forecast using
the past
as a guide

along the ride
you'll see what you've
learned

what's earned
will show through

(look)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-20

give

the best thing to have
is more
than someone else

no, wait

the best thing to have
is the ability to give
the more that you have
to someone who needs it

just the touch
of something good
you can give the world

can give you warmth
for days

(give)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-19

good for nothing

if you're told
you're good for nothing
look for the something
that made them say
you were nothing

bless them
then move on

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-18

what i meant to say

i meant to say
i love you
and i trust you
with all my heart

but when i saw you
outside waiting for me

(stomping that little stomp thing
you do when i'm a bit late)

the message i had been rehearsing
for almost an hour
slid down my throat
and hid behind
my internal organs

making my heart feel
just that much fuller
at the sight of you

winded again
speechless again
hopeless again

all i could do
is listen to your
news of the day

following your
babbling word cloud
with my
less than awkward silence

i'm less that awkward
with you

(maybe i should have said that)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-17

outside

whenever 

the world

is too big in it's troubles

go outside

breathe in the air

(even if it's a little cold)

stare up at the sky

(even if it's a little cloudy)

try to get lost

(even just for a moment)

lost in rain

lost in fraught

lost in sunshine

lost in thought

and whatever

the world

was your trouble

will be forgotten

in the dwelling

of the day 

even just for a moment

away.....

(out)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-16

stranger believed

once you were a stranger
hiding in my fears

walking
with my worries
grinding in my gears

then you were a scoundrel
popping in my dreams

floating
with my follies
acting in my scenes

finally you became a friend
stomping in my brain

tussling
with my troubles
wading in my rain

if i close my eyes
and let me
i can let you
in my heart

if i open my heart
and let you
i can let me
make a start

i believe
you're the future
as scary as it seems

can a once stranger
be the begin of all things?

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-15

sonnet for the amorous couple at the library (in full view)

she only wanted to partake
of what was given to her
she smelled of spices and cake
the rest was just a blur

he only needs what i have
he never looks at others
he talks forever of my calves
and always wants to smother

you can't have bliss at a library
it's a public place, you know
we only wish for the ordinary
your affection is not for show

please find a place to be alone
or do your smooches over the phone

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-14

new york city

i used
to want to live
to new york city

my daddy
would point out random
scenes on the tv
saying

"look, that's where
you want to go, right?"

and i would nod, and smile
visions of rhoda and felix
oscar and that girl in my head

thinking all i needed
was a great wardrobe
and a crazy job

to survive

but now
as i'm getting older
i watch the movies
coming from the big apple
and
i walk with the vloggers
discussing their day to day
while making sense of
the road ahead of them

and that's enough for me

i've built up
nyc so much
in my head

that nothing
real
is going to satisfy
my dreams

maybe i'm better
just being a spectator
of things

following reflections
on curved glass

safe
in the reason
of my being

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-13

changes

we were talking about
the rain
and how cold
it was going to get

then you started crying
for your daddy

we were looking over
the Christmas list
deciding what to buy
my mother

then you started hankering
for pizza

we were in
a bundle
of our own

covered in blankets
watching my favourite
movie

when you smothered me
with your pillow
and stomped
downstairs

saying you didn't even
know me
anymore

have i ever known you?

will i ever get used to
these changes
of the heart?

will i ever be able
to pinpoint
when this metamorphosis
happens?

good you
or bad you
happy you
or sad you

hungry
for my attention
always

if i could only 
figure out
what to give

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-12

unlikely

it's unlikely
that you care for me
as much as i care
for you

and i'm glad

because there are
some days
that i can't whisper
your name
without crying

there are
some times
that i can't think
of you
without pining

whining the 
day away

but then
there are
some days
that you make me
yell loud enough
to break glass

there are
some times
that you make me
want to come over
and kick your ass

stomping it 
'til it's flat

i hope
that you give me
more chances
than i sometimes
give you

it's likely
and hopefully true

that you love me
more than i love you

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-11

not here

i'm here
but my mind's
a million miles away

it's tripping
along the sand
jumping over the cold waves
of the ocean

it's hiding
behind the tree
peering past the bright lights
of Christmas

it's looking
over the colours
falling through the brush strokes
of the paintings

natural wonders
and hidden dreams
old masterpieces
and new scenes

far away from here
grows my destiny

if only i was brave
enough
to end

and begin again

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-10

mid-call

"i think the wind
finally stopped

it's like 45 degrees
out there

or something"

i can hear you
typing furiously

about one thing
or another

and i stop talking
respectfully

and the silence
goes on and on

but i don't mind
because i'm used
to you

and the things
you do

and i know
that even though
it's quiet now

you'll be talking
a mile a minute
about something

soon as we're done
dwelling
in ourselves

so far away
from each other

(wait)

yes if no

yes if no
but then maybe

up if down
but then crazy

out if in
but then close by

off if on
but then ask why

maybe you'll find out

(try)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-9

cranberry sauce

i love
the taste
of a good
cranberry sauce

i love
the memory
of the label
and the wave

i love
the sound
of escaped
air

when you
splooshed it
open
and shook it
out

in a cylinder
of red
in the fancy bowl

i love
the fact that
no one else
likes this
jellied mess
of originality

just me
and the ghost
of you

fork poised
for another bite

(eat)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-8

dayz

it was a wednesday
when you came
to visit

i lost my
bedside table

i lost most
of my pillows

i couldn't find
my good underwear

and everything
smelled
like bananas

didn't ask why

it was a thursday
when we had
the fight

you hid
in my office

you hid
all my socks

and nothing
could be done
without doritos

didn't ask why

it was a sunday
when you left me
at the airport

you hid
the tears in pocket

i lost
my head in clouds

and something
was said
in the silence

didn't ask what
didn't ask why

(because)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-7

measuring up

you know
without saying

you hear
without talking

you try
without me knowing
you try

as the days
go by

i want you more
and more

but i can't get
close enough

to your perfection
to measure up

the small
in me shrinks
away

with every nothing
you say

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-6

destruction

i'm not going

to blame myself

for harsh words

if you don't get me

after all this time

then you'll never

truly understood me

i know that 

with every word

i say

destruction happens

but

i'm finally 

at the point where

it can't matter to me

anymore

if we can't be we

to-gether

then we can't be 

with

each other

one to the other

when the world

is free

don't worry

in this whole scheme

of things

i never really 

was worth it

anyway

(pay)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-5

stay next to me

don't get lost
in this whirlwind
of activity

stay next to me

we've been through
the ups and downs

the black and whites
the blues and browns

all the colours of life
and how it wasn't
meant to be

stay next to me

i promise
the sun will shine us through

me and you
just as it was before

stay next to me

unseen

you are with me
and i am with you

and eternity
will bow in our favour

and whosoever
crosses the line
between us

won't be seen 

the dream between us
is too strong

(long)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-4

no matter

a triangle

can't be round

no matter how hard

it tries

a like

can't be a love

no matter how hard

i cry

a help

can't be a cure

no matter how hard

i sigh 

a love 

can't be erased

no matter how hard

i try

(die)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-3

your mask

you play your game
i follow behind

trying to catch up
to your creativity

you rush about
flickering in time

i try to bring in
sensibility

you pause to listen
to what is right

acting like words
can change

but the mask you
wear wards off

anything that feels
strange

fly in an instant
towards your own
destiny

i knew all along
that you'd never
follow me

your mask forgot
to show

the you i didn't know

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-2

new day

a new day
would be if we
took our coats

and cool scarves

and ran out into
the winter wind

driving a straight line
'til our stomachs told us
to stop

trying new food
drinking hot drinks

pouring out our lives
over the steam of some
delicacy

you don't have to sit
next to me
to know i'm on your side

just close your eyes
and ride

(new)

http://www.writersdigest.com/whats-new/2017-november-pad-chapbook-challenge-day-1