in love

when every word
is important

and not just a throwaway

when every event
is remembered

and not just another day

and every time
we're to-gether

we live heart-to-heart

and savour what's
between us

when we're apart

....until the sun favours us
again

(know)

the walk

what's left
of the nature
before me?

what touch
will i leave
in its wake?

what right
do i have
walking through
the clouds?

is it all
a big mistake

how hard
does my heart
quake

at the answer

(again)

translator

i know this is dumb, but sometimes i wish i could speak another language....

english doesnt seem to have just the right words for the pain in me, sometimes

i guess i need to write out the language within me, and find some translator out there

or maybe i should just stop trying

mute

don't speak

you're wrong
anyway

let him talk

let him say what
he wants to say

pretend with all
your might
again

and again

and perhaps normal
will happen

no more rain

please

no more rain

(gone)

aspire

to be special
in your eyes

to inspire
that spark
once more

to no longer
being
the burden
i'm feeling

to be the joy
of the sun

instead of the pain
i've become....

(one)

covered

i'll shelter you
my inner soul
from the cold

i'll protect you
my inner hope
from the bad

until it's good again

new things with old brain

details floating
in my brain

jot this down
so you'll remember

numbers skipping
before my eyes

remember this file
you'll need it

act normal now
maybe they won't notice

don't forget to
check each cover

the panic that grows
inside of me

these pages have
to match up at the end
of the month 
or the publisher won't 
get paid and they'll 
suspend
our account

every time they add

these books are made
in japan
so they may be 
a little backward

something new

by the way, how well
do you know algebra?

to my list

(i think i need another notebook)

(eep)

the capture

flashback
of a feeling

triggered
by an image

taken
so quickly

in passing

heartfelt
was the meaning

spirited
was the season

captured
so swiftly

but lasting

life has a way
of slipping away

hold still
for just a moment

and smile

(past)

audio version:  https://soundcloud.com/jamison99/the-capture

step to step

his smell
surrounds me

condemning me
to my bad choices

his words
plague me

correcting me
for my bad behaviour

his presence
shadows me

even though
i know he's not there

when i am near
i hide in the shadows

trying to walk the
straight and narrow

through the personal hell
that i began

the moment i met him

(woe)

gone

the lake's
been dried up
forever and a day

but my tears don't know it

the sun's
been shining
the darkness away

but my face doesn't show it

your voice
was the only thing
that kept me smiling

and now you're gone

your words
were the only reason
that i kept fighting

and now it's wrong

down with the silence
that comes with the day

down with the madness
that gets in the way

down with all the reasons
i wanted you to stay

even though i didn't say them
when you walked away

(gone)


audio version here: https://soundcloud.com/jamison99/gone

for the sea of seamus

the water
on the blue coast
played along the shore

the waves
flowed in and outward
and shined forevermore

the laughter
of the children
rippled throughout the pier

how wonderful
to be a youngster
living without fear