re-think

this whole
"being dead" thing

stop it

get real

don't go there

just....think differently

don't dwell
on the darkness

think about
what you need to do

what you have to be
to others

and stay away
from thinking about
death

it's simple

we good?
ok

good

(blunt)

words

i think it's important
to remember
that our words
are not ourselves

they are who
we hope 
to be

they are what
can help another
who walk our
paths

they are why
we become
what we are

or what we'll be

writing down
who we are
at the time

puts it all into focus

marking growth
perpetuating hope

giving the most
of our meager voices

out into the darkness
of the future

as a light to see us through

(grow)

foggy promises

you
i know

i wish
i could give
you all

but i don't
know me

and the person
i see

isn't worthy
of the soul
in your eyes

dance
with me

let me know
you care

and i'll try
to remember
who i was

while trying
to grow up
to what you are

and i will
be free again
in your love

my soul

and i will be free
again

(learn)

for allison

indirectly
with you

to-gether
but just out
of view

sketches of
memories draw
my mind away

from the news
of the day

one fatal abruption
tore your life
from mine

one violent abduction
took my heart
from me

when was there
a chance to say
goodbye

when our whole
life was close by

just waiting
to begin.....

(undid)

old ways

old ways
comfort the aged
in their grief
and pain

old songs
whisper the pages
of the times
when we were
insane

you told me
"this century"
and rebuked me
the past

but youth don't last

and old ways
trace the tears
away

reminding you
of what you found

and what's just
around the corner
of your heart

(learn)

hold that thought

trying
gently
to say the right thing

but still
acting
as natural as i can

it's a balance
between worlds

a combination
of two manners

a feeling of tension
in the relaxation

always speaking
two steps behind
what i'm thinking

hoping for a reality

where normalcy
is just a breath away

(hold)

advice you didn't ask for

when you're young
you think
"i can change him...

whatever it is
i can fix it"

when you're older
you know
"i can be with him...

whatever it is
i can face it with him"

choosing wisely
from the start
will make for
a happy heart

live,
let live,
and grow

in the sunshine
of what you know

(do)

let me in

don't reach
for a pen
before you reach
for me

let me in

don't hide
between blank pages
measuring out
your rages

let me in

trust me
to understand
the emotion i lack

allow me
to listen
and answer back

teach me
to satisfy
before ink's sate

let me in

now

before it's too late

(soon)

expectations

different worlds

different
expectations

hopes
and dreams
from what
you grew up
with

sketched out
of memory

perfection
is seen
through the
heart

and reasoned
out
by the brain

driving love
insane

as it
staggers out
the door

wrapped
in confusion
and tension

crawling back
to the rainbow
that was

(then)

tale of the tape

your decision
your fatigue

your way home

your opinions
your needs

your time to roam

your feelings
your views

your only voice

your meanings
your talk

no other choice

(i?)

thump

your letter
arrived in heartbeats

and left in footfalls
of happiness....

hummus

she asked
for hummus
again

and even though
i have it
day to day

i got it
for her

just to see
her eyes
light up in glee

as she rejoiced
over something
i introduced
to her

long ago

when love
was young

and reactions
were still
unguarded

smiles
you can't hide
are better than
tears
you must cover

in the light of day

(soon)

unsurety

in a foreign land

someone else's 
stomping ground

learning about
a past
i've never known

walking
and filming up
memories

trying to forget
what you did to me

you and i
were like breaths
apart

exhaling the end
of each other's
sentences

all i could see
in a horizon of
blue

was me and you

and now i'm in
a land full
of unknown accents

trying so hard
to live
the easy life

not promising
a future
not feeling
a past

just walking
ahead

step by step
out of the darkness

and into
the unsure light
of home

(roll)

the quote

if you believe it
so you will be

you say

if i say it
then it's always
wrong

i know

so i cover
and cower

cloud
and convince
you

i hear

even if
all i ever do

is cry

(mute)

not one

i'm not worth

you

i'm not the one 

to turn to 

for strength

i'm not the one 

who'll help

when it hurts

i'm the one
who'll slide
off the mountainside

on the way
to the burning
sun

no one
to be remembered

no one
to know

(ago)

untitled

cold coffee
sitting in cup

once warmed
by your lips

twice removed
from your grasp

left stagnant
on the windowsill

waiting to thrill
again

pockets

pockets
hold the soul
of your hand
in warmth
and comfort

pockets
hide the treasures
of the world
in safety
and seclusion

pockets
are hard to reach into,
never deep enough,
and spoil the line
of your clothes

telling tales about
the wearer
to everyone
who sees

stay close to me
and i'll protect you
from prying eyes

pickpockets in
disguise
could be anywhere

(lean)

could be

i make this
giggle of
glee

most unmanly

when she's
near me

i feel this
moment of
peace

all troubles
cease

when she's
around me

if only i
could say

fancily

what's in
my heart

most plainly

then she could
feel what i
see

when she's
next to me

(try)

comparing

of course
there's a reason
there was love
there

quit digging up
the past

quit comparing
and contrasting
her to you

you won't win

she's in him
and you're
not

(stop)