Tuesday, October 1, 2024

pause

put it in a ziploc
until it goes away

don't speak to anyone
until they all behave

don't listen to your heart
it always points away

put your life on pause
and simply walk away

(again)



Monday, July 29, 2024

remind

remind me again
what to wear on my sleeve 

besides my heart 

teach me again 
how to nod and smile outside 

while my insides fall apart 

i. keep. forgetting.
what i have to be

in order to cope
with what i can see

balled up fists
in hidden pockets

should do the trick

there's no one 
more sick of me 
than me

(be)



Saturday, July 27, 2024

covert wedding poem

rehearsing
and nursing the part

the part that comes
from the heart

there's so much 
i want to say

to prove this is right
to show what is real

to learn from it all

what was 
supposed to happen 
happens now

may the child within you
grow
may the sadness within me
die

may we both learn 
to hope

no matter what happens 
around us

surround us with peace
and love

please

that's all i think we need

today, anyway

(betray)




cynical wedding poem

in the world of
supposed-to-haves

and could-have-beens

we stand in repose
to the point of dozing

waiting to say our lines

do we mean it this time?

do we feel the weight
of the words?

do we understand 
what we stand here saying?

and does it all matter
anyway

(nay)





Friday, July 19, 2024

empathy

we just
took a step together

why did you have to 
tear it apart

we just
said the word forever

why did you have to
break my heart?

if i just keep busy
and hide from my coworkers

the mother
the poet
the teenagers

then i'll be ok

my bright blues 
won't be blurred
by the serious browns 
watching me

no matter what they see

(hide)





retracings

 she cared so much
for you

eloquent words from
years of pain

i read them again and again

torturing myself
i suppose

after all, i'm different
or so i'd like to think

don't dive into the drink
too many times, poet

you're all the same to me

(redundance)




Thursday, April 25, 2024

24/7

no chance to silence
myself

no chance to walk away
and calm myself

always on
always pleasing
always being the one ideal

(it isn't ideal)